We are days (or hey… maybe weeks) away from meeting Amelia and officially becoming a family of four. It hasn’t been until the past couple of weeks that I have started to let the idea of ACTUALLY having two kids, sink in. Of course there is excitement, but I also know that we are ending the ease of just having Bennett and will be thrown into life with two. It’s such a bittersweet transition. I am SO excited to meet Amelia but at the same time, every night that I rock Bennett before bed, I think about how he made me a mom. It’s just been him and I for so long. We have learned together, made many mistakes together, grown to a new level of love together. He has helped shape me into the woman that I am today. He has been my world for the past two years and it makes me wonder how my world is about to shift and be molded into something different. I find myself wondering how I will handle the schedule of two when I already feel maxed out some days. Then add another spinning plate of running a business. It’s in these moments of panic that I am reminded that my peace comes from Him. When my “everything must be perfect and scheduled to the minute” personality starts to choke me out, I am reminded to take a deep breath. To breathe in His peace and goodness and let the anxiety go.

I am holding on to these last few weeks and trying to absorb all these moments that I get with Bennett. It’s hard knowing that in the coming weeks, we will be asking so much of him but seeing his excitement grow for Amelia’s arrival, makes my heart swell to a new level. He asks when she will be coming and I really think he is starting to understand that I have an actual baby in my belly. It’s the sweetest thing as he tries to say her name and occasionally can only get out “Millie”. He’s going to make such a great big brother.

I am actually starting to feel prepared (it only took 38 weeks! haha). I have a few freezer meals prepared, the bags are starting to get packed, the carseat installed and the little tiny baby clothes washed. The end of this pregnancy has been very different than Bennett’s. Patrick constantly says, “You’re not acting like you’re about to give birth” as he is referring to how miserable I was the last couple of months with B. It has only been in the last couple of days that my body has started to hurt… but in a way that I feel as though it’s preparing for labor. Although pregnancy is not my favorite, I am very thankful to have been able to carry her this long and to have had a healthy pregnancy.

I’m ready to see what the rest of 2017 holds. The ups and downs, all the new and exciting moments and all the moments that will require me to find refuge in Him.

Continue praying for me and my family as we are so very near this life changing transition?

What a beautiful chapter we are ending. I’m thankful that we have a story to continue though and all the wonderful moments that will be coming in this next chapter. So thankful for my little family. ❤