Well, we finally announced that we have another bun in the oven. We have known since 2015 that we were going to start trying this Spring, so it’s been hard to keep the baby talk to a minimum. It’s funny, when you get pregnant the first time around – you want to shout it from the rooftops… at least I did! We seriously could barely wait to announce it to our family and friends!

This time around has been different. We kept it a hidden little secret for much longer. It was fun. It was special. Truthfully the only reason I announced when I did was because several people asked if I was pregnant on the same day, so I figured it was time to spill the beans.

Although the Bahamas wasn’t our original plan for this baby, it will be a fun fact for their story. Our kidless vacation was the perfect way to kick off this next season we are entering into. Just call me a Bahama mama. 😉 

So – let’s get all of those personal questions out of the way that everyone seems to ask.

Yes. Baby #2 was very planned.

Yes. There is a certain gender I am hoping for… but I will be happy regardless.

Yes. We are so very excited.

Yes. We have names…. although I’m not sure we will announce them prior to birth this time.

 

Now for the number 1 question I get: “How are you feeling”.

Y’all, can I be honest? Being pregnant is one of the hardest physical and emotional thing that I have done in my life.

Do you remember Bennett’s pregnancy? That was hard. Unfortunately, this one has been harder.

I’m struggling y’all. I hesitate to say that because I have clients who are Facebook friends with me (so please don’t be worried! ha). But it’s true. This pregnancy is draining me of everything that is me. I’m sicker than I was with Bennett and I’m not sure how that is even possible. Everyday is a physical battle to eat and try and keep it down.

I purchased my $263 dollars (100 days) worth of anti vomiting medicine that I used with Bennett and it keeps the vomiting at bay but I’m still insanely nauseous all day everyday.

Between trying to care for Bennett and running a business, I have been running full speed at my breaking point. I knew that something needed to change. Imagine a waitress balance dozens of plates on each arm and trying to run around in circles. That’s how I’ve been feeling. I was dropping plates left and right for my business and motherhood and the drowning feeling was creeping in.

When you’re at your max, you have to make changes. So- I found an amazing Preschool for Bennett to attend 2 days a week in the mornings. This will allow me to work uninterrupted twice a week and actually breath life in my business, instead of just keeping it afloat. It will allow me to grow it and nourish it and not just reach the bare minimums.

This will also allow me to fully be present when Bennett is home. No more working while he’s here. No more, “Hey go watch Curious George while I try and edit”. I’ve been feeling so guilty these past 3 months because I’ve been stretched too thin between both work and motherhood. It was time to set myself up for success and give myself some dedicated hours to get work done.

I feel like I can breath with these upcoming changes. I feel like I won’t be trying to juggle so many plates. That the load is lightened because there will be designated hours every week to work. This has been a long time coming and I’m so excited to see my business grow during this next season.

 

Another big change for this pregnancy is that I have changed from an OBGYN to a midwife. Baby #2 will be birth at a birthing center called Baby + Company in Cary. I have already been enjoying the differences between seeing a midwife vs. an obgyn. If you’re curious about where I’ll be birthing… these are images from the birthing suites. This makes me more excited than a hospital room. 🙂 Each room is fully equipped with various aspects that help promote a natural delivery. They are also fully equipped with medical equipment for baby and mom, so no worries there.

 

So, this is all I have for this post. If you get a chance, could you pray for me? Pray for this pregnancy? It’s been a hard 12 weeks. Praying for strength and energy and a healthy baby and mama. Thanks friends.

 

I’ll keep y’all updated. 😉