It’s getting hot, the pools are open and trips to the wonderful beach are underway. The topic of bathing suits can sometimes be controversial but I’ve been wanting to share why I personally wear what I wear.

I haven’t always covered myself the way I do now. Even during the first couple years of marriage, I still wore a bikini. Patrick never once asked me to change how I dressed or to cover my body. This choice was completely my own. My own personal convictions and thoughts on how I want my body to only be seen by Patrick, that brought me to cover myself.

I never use to feel any conviction about wearing a bikini, if you look back far enough into my photos on Facebook, you’ll still find them. The change literally happened overnight though. I woke up 2 summers ago and the idea of putting a bikini on just didn’t seem right. All of the sudden I felt like if I wore a bikini, it would be identical to me standing in front of everyone in my underwear…. and Patrick is the only one who needs to see that. So, I knew I wanted to change.

It’s hard to explain when the Holy Spirit draws a line that isn’t always the same for everyone else. Everyone has different lines that they draw because they have their own personal convictions. Some people don’t drink alcohol, some do. Some people don’t curse, some do. Some people don’t wear bikini’s, some do. These are all topics that each individual decides what is “right” for them. These all have gray lines because the bible specifically doesn’t say, do not use curse words or do not wear a bikini. There are verses that can guide someone into choosing, but the bible does not verbatim say, “Thou shall not wear a bikini.”

Please, please, PLEASE do not feel like I’m judging you if you’re rocking a bikini…. I promise I’m not.

I had someone ask if I wear a bikini to keep other men from stumbling. This isn’t what I really thought about when I decided I wanted to wear a one piece or tankini. My thought process is more so that I want to reserve my body only for Patrick. How it looks is for his eyes only. Even if we don’t know anyone else, it is still important for me to stay covered.

Snorkeling in Cozumel, Mexico

It’s hard for me to even explain it. I actually feel pretty vulnerable blogging about it because I feel like most of yall will think this is over kill or that I’m crazy. Like why is it such a big deal? It’s just a bathing suit. I’m not sure why this is such a big deal to me, but it is.

So where do I draw the line when it comes to what I will or will not wear? I personally need to have my butt and whoo ha (va-gi-na…. whoo ha totally sounds better haha) covered. I don’t personally feel comfortable if it is the same shape and fit as my underwear. Tops? I need my midsection covered and very little cleavage which is hard to find. It is a known fact that I have breasts… but I personally just like to keep them covered. I am comfortable with my shoulders and back exposed.

See, you might be rolling your eyes saying, well why are your thighs ok and your back but not your stomach? I’m not sure. This is just what I feel comfortable with. These are just the lines I drew.

I just wanted to share a little bit about my story of why I started rocking a one piece long before I had a kid. If you’re struggling with what to wear, just pray about it. No one can make that decision for you. Wanna rock a bikini, rock away. Want to wear a swim dress? That works too. I prefer something a little in between.

I really started thinking about this topic because for the past week, I’ve been on the hunt for a new swim suit. I love target but Target just didn’t work for me. I actually bought a one piece but took it back because I just didn’t love it. I ended up finding a new swim suit at Sears of all places. Unexpected but completely delightful. 🙂 It’s hard to be 23 and dress against the norm. I really struggled to find a cute suit that didn’t make me look a lot older than I am. I wanted something fashionable yet modest. It’s a challenge.

Again, I’m not telling you to stop wearing a bikini or that I’m right and you’re wrong. I’ve just been asked why I wear a one piece and I thought it was worth a blog post.

Happy swim suit weather 🙂